scott's cousin can only pick him up on the 4th, and i won't be back in town by then. but i am kind of relieved. i was scared to meet his family, and this way i have a few days to chill with my friends before i start babysitting.
i'm super excited for Maine and New Hampshire just for the frickin hotels.
shopping will be good too, i'll only have $100 american, but no sales tax and outlets means some sweet shit.
me and scott had our first fight on friday, cuz I did e. but i think we're good now, except i have been depressed and probably kind of a downer. i cut last night for the first time in like 3 months. just 3 little 2inch cuts, not even deep but it felt so fucking good to bleed, which is a really bad thing.
i also talked to my moms friend who works in CHEO emergency and told her about my symptons on my e OD. she told me that what happened with my pupils meant brain damage, but obviously not severe. I am sooo beyond finished with it, and anyone who hears me talking about it... try and discourage it. and for my friends who do it, please let me make this decision on my own and don't pressure me. and think about it for your own sake.
later...